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[aesmael]

The urge to deny previous love is strong, perhaps that by making it false we bolster claims of present feelings true and eternal.

If I could have said those things and meant them then, and now feel them not... it is not a transition pleasant to contemplate concerning current relationships. I think perhaps the recoiling embarrassment felt is to disbelieve the present might be as fleeting fragile as the past has been.

Though we hope it not to be.

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[pazi-ashfeather.livejournal.com]

If I'd realized you posted this here before you added it to Twitter, I might have replied here first. ^^;

I think you have correctly guessed that this behavior primarily acts to provide false certainty; that in fact even present love can be a thing that vanishes from future moments, leaving a disconnect between memory and awareness.

This is just a part of life and love. It happens sometimes. The present may or may not be fleeting, but it is real; and when you look back on it years from now (whatever happens in between) it will be as malleable to your memories and interpretations, and as tempting to reclassify.

I sometimes play this game myself, so as to reassure myself that you and Tess are really going to always be there, that I will not ever have to face the prospect of losing either one of you. Ultimately I find it best to accept that this may be fleeting and it may not be, and that I do not know but here I am and here it is, we are together and happy of that fact and we all seem to wish it be ythe case, work even slowly and at difficulty towards the realization of our goals.

The future will tend to itself.

[lost-angelwings.livejournal.com]

*hugs and also hopes* Also wise trish is wise