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I am very pleased with the Keramik theme for KDE. Should have changed it sooner.
Although I removed the communities filter from my Morning Coffee reading list I still find myself not having the time to do things that need doing. It seems like most of my time currently is being taken up with talking to people and reading personal journals. The people I talk to are wonderful and I would happily converse with them until one or both of us dropped from exhaustion; unfortunately I am not good at multitasking. ~4 conversations and reading is about as much as I can handle without neglecting someone and with even one person it becomes much more difficult to do anything else.
Right now I want to make a terrible analogy and say it is like I am a quantum entity. If someone observes me by having a conversation with me I am collapsed into a particular form. Each person observes something different but none of them are what I am when no one is around (I wonder what I am when I am not around?), which is not necessarily bad. Possibly I sometimes need focusing and definitely people help with many things.
I think it is not the fault of other people that I have difficulty doing anything else when they are available. I think it is possible for me to have both conversation and productive activity and I think I need to learn how. It is also possible that attempting to understand people and formulate responses to them takes up so much of my brainpower there is not capacity for anything else of significance. Or it could be as simple as nothing else being sufficiently compelling recently. I should perhaps withdraw and take time to contemplate this.
Memo to self: resume efforts at efficient communication and composition.
Things I intended to get back to:
I maintain that I wish to be a writer. Insofar as I write stories I suppose I could claim that title, except I would not feel right about it unless someone had paid me to publish a thing I had written. Once I reach that point, then I can find some other reason to not feel comfortable claiming that title [insert canned laughter here]. This paragraph is aiming at the point that, if I become a successful writer there is a good chance of people subscribing to this journal who are fans and not friends. There are some things I want to be open with and others I wish to keep private and I am not yet settled on what things fall into which category. Recently I have been erring on the side of keeping too many things locked down and would like to change that. A shift in policy had crept up on me until nearly nothing was left public.
My mouse problems seem confined to Vista. It does not work unless I adjust the plug and was not responding immediately before I switched to Kubuntu. It is working fine now without adjustment.
Although I removed the communities filter from my Morning Coffee reading list I still find myself not having the time to do things that need doing. It seems like most of my time currently is being taken up with talking to people and reading personal journals. The people I talk to are wonderful and I would happily converse with them until one or both of us dropped from exhaustion; unfortunately I am not good at multitasking. ~4 conversations and reading is about as much as I can handle without neglecting someone and with even one person it becomes much more difficult to do anything else.
Right now I want to make a terrible analogy and say it is like I am a quantum entity. If someone observes me by having a conversation with me I am collapsed into a particular form. Each person observes something different but none of them are what I am when no one is around (I wonder what I am when I am not around?), which is not necessarily bad. Possibly I sometimes need focusing and definitely people help with many things.
I think it is not the fault of other people that I have difficulty doing anything else when they are available. I think it is possible for me to have both conversation and productive activity and I think I need to learn how. It is also possible that attempting to understand people and formulate responses to them takes up so much of my brainpower there is not capacity for anything else of significance. Or it could be as simple as nothing else being sufficiently compelling recently. I should perhaps withdraw and take time to contemplate this.
Memo to self: resume efforts at efficient communication and composition.
Things I intended to get back to:
- The article I read at Encarta whilst undertaking my examination concerned the subject of men in professions dominated by women and do they face glass ceilings? I never did go back to it for further study. I'm not sure what they gained by specifically interviewing men who were successful in those careers. I do think I remember a teacher in one of my classes saying something which made me think there were more men in upper-level positions in the library industry (relative to their proportion within the industry as a whole)
- Probably in relation to this post, I meant to return to the matter of the donut and say that, since I could well decide in the future that it is not moral to eat meat I should refrain from purchasing any for myself. Unfortunately I have since broken this resolution on one occasion, but I have not abandoned it. Though it does make me look at shop food with longing (fortunately I am more tempted by baked foods)
- The other things can wait, probably meriting a full post
I maintain that I wish to be a writer. Insofar as I write stories I suppose I could claim that title, except I would not feel right about it unless someone had paid me to publish a thing I had written. Once I reach that point, then I can find some other reason to not feel comfortable claiming that title [insert canned laughter here]. This paragraph is aiming at the point that, if I become a successful writer there is a good chance of people subscribing to this journal who are fans and not friends. There are some things I want to be open with and others I wish to keep private and I am not yet settled on what things fall into which category. Recently I have been erring on the side of keeping too many things locked down and would like to change that. A shift in policy had crept up on me until nearly nothing was left public.
My mouse problems seem confined to Vista. It does not work unless I adjust the plug and was not responding immediately before I switched to Kubuntu. It is working fine now without adjustment.
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Date: 2007-12-30 14:41 (UTC)From:So there is no "glass ceiling" per se b/c these positions are considered the supporting positions to the more "important" jobs :\
I always found it annoying that guys seemed to be treated like they'd kick butt in "women's duties" as well like cooking and stuff (like most of the top chefs are male) they just have "better things to do" :\
*hugs*
You should be a writer. You are a great writer :)
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Date: 2007-12-30 20:08 (UTC)From:I'm routinely boggled when I realize how incredibly much focus and brainpower goes in to the ability to form coherent conversation. It's also been interesting how other factors affect that: I can talk to 4 people about 4 separate writing projects easily, but having 1 happy and 1 sad conversation is very taxing. I suppose I could say, if everyone is observing me the same, it's easy. If two people observe me differently, I suffer "Quantum Stresses" :)
Regarding publicity:
My LJ has two layers of defense. Anything I want screened from employers (and/or co-workers and/or family), I friend-lock. If someone is on my friend's list, they're known to be either "none of the above" or else a safe exception.
Second... there isn't really any way to correlate my offline identity with my online journal, as far as I know. I'm sure it could be done by someone who was terrifically dedicated, but not trivially. So my employers aren't aware of my LJ (except insofar as I access it on the anonymous break room computers), and my writing connects to it only if I include a contact email address (which I currently do make a habit of)
The shorter version: You can have a private journal for people you know, and a public one for your fan base. Thanks to filters and friends-lists, you can do this using just one journal :)
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Date: 2007-12-31 07:55 (UTC)From:I do intend to announce here if I ever do have anything published but doubt I would correspondingly set out to associate this account with my name. One thing that concerns me is writers are reportedly expected to undertake a great deal of self-promotion these days and blogging is increasingly considered a standard part of that. Except I have just talked myself around again to doing whatever it is I do and attempting to ignore expectations as much as possible.
At the moment there is a large filter called simply 'friends' which nearly everyone gets placed under and in which nearly all locked entries are filed. This is mainly so I can add people to my reading lists without exposing to them things I wish kept private.
And all that is largely tangential to agreeing with you and saying my main problem is deciding what to file where, but it does help to ask myself each time I post who I am comfortable letting see those words.
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Date: 2007-12-31 20:08 (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2007-12-31 08:12 (UTC)From:That is certainly isn't the case at my library. But most people are female. However, it seems to be a job where one stays for many, many years, and slowly rises in... Once you get higher, however, (in the organisation the library is part of and answers to), it is mainly men.
Having a conversation... takes up so much mental energy. Especially if you have to switch personalities to match and remain consistent. I'm amazed if you can get anything done.
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Date: 2007-12-31 12:29 (UTC)From:I suppose so. I think my teacher was speaking mainly of the executive levels who do not do much actual librarianing.
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Date: 2007-12-31 12:45 (UTC)From:we have 'sort of upper management' staff who do practially no 'real' librarian work, but these are below and separate from the upper echelons of both the local Council (downstairs) and the local Tertiary (upstairs) - so those upper executives are mostly men, but within the library it's even, as a percentage (ie half the men, but there are fewer in total) who have risen, usually, from lowlier ranks.