Worries

[aesmael]

Originally published at a denizen's entertainment. You can comment here or there.

For about the past decade I've had very, very intermittent problems with my knees and back pain. The sort of thing that goes unmentioned to doctors because it only recurs on very long timescales, enough that I didn't even think of it as something to talk to a doctor about until very recently, rather than as 'something that just happens'.

But since I have started at that charity shop I have been more worried, as several times in the past couple of weeks I have felt my knee act as if it is about to give out under me, including a small yell of pain I was surprised no one reacted to. Twice in the past week I have had to swap out what I was doing to moderate back pain. At least my feet have been growing better at not hurting with all the standing involved, and that is a pleasant surprise, for it to be improved so soon.

I do not mean to say these are serious issues relative to other people, or any sort of trivialisation of what other people face, anything like that. Am just writing about what I have been experiencing and my personal consequent worry that, as the activities I have been engaged in when those pains and problems of mine have dramatically increased their presence (although not to their serious extent yet - I have neither collapsed nor had to make an early departure, in that workplace so far) and the work I have been doing to apparently bring them on is very similar to what I have done in the past in libraries (and, possibly I vaguely recall this having happened when working in them too and going unmentioned)-

It makes me worry that in the long term I may be unable to do a form of work that I do love, if these similar activities bring on those former incapacitating pains with any frequency. I hope that won't happen. Maybe should work out what to do if it does.

Comments

[lost-angelwings.livejournal.com]

D: that is worrying! :( did not know it was that bad :( you should def talk to your doctor about this... maybe you will need a scan or something to see if there is any serious damage in your knees :( do you get enuf calcium in your diet btw? i know that milk doesn't sit well w/ you.. so wonder if there are other sources...not that i know that's the issue or nething.. just thinking.. worrying about you :( but def see a doctor about it :(

also in the meantime can you take advil or tylenol or something to help w/ the pain during work? :( *hug hug hug hug hug*

[cmcmck.livejournal.com]

Just a thought: have you been doing any heavy lifting at either of your places of employment?

[aesmael.livejournal.com]

No heavy lifting has been involved. Just stuff like long periods of standing, rearranging clothes on coat-hangers and on one occasion rearranging books already on shelves.

At the toy library some of the toys are large and bulky but relatively light. I do my best to follow proper lifting procedure at all times anyway, so I don't think that's the problem, but I'd certainly try to be even more strictly diligent.