Wounded conflict

Writing to the endocrinologist who has been helping me out, to update her on my search for general practitioners who will treat me. Wanting to include a sentence or two expressing appreciation for her taking me on and attempting to help with resources and medication, and finding myself getting emotional, choked up.

Pulling back from doing so, on the basis that to feel so grateful to a doctor merely for treating me as a patient or appearing to be helpful is a sign of a dysfunctional system and I should not play into that nor allow it to make more vulnerable than I am if I can avoid that. But it would also be polite, and it is true. So, considering.