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It's late and I'm tired but I'm experimenting with following through on my desire to journal more so here we are. Again and again and again, right?

I got my last assignment in a little bit ago. It's late but it's done and I hope the latter counts for more than the former. I know I wouldn't mark myself favourably for it but maybe the school will be more lenient. I wouldn't have let me get this far in school, so maybe they will let me get away with it again.

I'm looking forward to having tomorrow off. I'm looking forward to taking an extra long walk, to tending the house a bit and making plans for future meals. I have a job application to work on and some personal projects that need attention but I don't want to stress myself too much. I want to strike a balance of relaxation and activity that doesn't leave me feeling sick or hollow which probably means accepting I won't get a lot done before work resumes the day after.

Feeling quite tired so I should hit send now.

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"What is LiveJournal?" (Watch on YouTube)

When I logged in to LiveJournal the other day they had a nifty video as a splash that was very clearly tailored as a response to the concerns people have been voicing about all the other social sites going. It certainly did a good job reminding me of what I've loved about LiveJournal as a platform that no other has lived up to.

Of course these days and for a long while I've favoured DreamWidth over LiveJournal itself, but they're both forked from the same codebase. Either way that's where I'd rather be, despite the dried-up tide pool of a user base.

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First day without any deadline looming over my head in several months (okay, one) and of course I start it off by crying because I feel lonely.

Okay, okay, I started it off with a walk around the neighbourhood and breakfast, but then. Talked things over with one of my partners and feeling better about things for now. But since no actual circumstance is changed or readily able to be changed. So, still lonely.

Not sure there is anything to do for that unless I can somehow make some new friends. And I feel crowded enough in my life I'm not sure I even want to try and find space for more people.

One long term source of distress for me is feeling like I no longer have anything worth saying, that I can no longer contribute conversation. Partly this is probably due to my time nowadays being split between work and school and in the remainder am typically engaged in some low-effort relaxation like watching television or reading message boards, and making occasional remarks on what is going on there. Not that I think all conversation ought to be weighty and serious, but I suppose if I were able to put more focus into creative projects again I might again have more to say?

I miss myself.