Bit of another day

[aesmael]

Originally published at a denizen's entertainment. You can comment here or there.

Today's the day my mother and her husband left on their long vacation in Europe. Since I have never yet been able to afford a place of my own this is I think the first time I've had an opportunity to direct my own life without anyone else looming over me.

Repeatedly leading up to this people have checked on me that I know how to do things like sweep floors or wash clothes or cook food. I find it upsetting that people seem to view me as rather more helpless than I am, especially since there doesn't seem any conscious basing of this on my having a disability that does make self-care difficult for many (perhaps if they did I would be bothered by that instead, but right now this foundationless presumption is bothering me). Maybe it is not without foundation, and I will turn out fairly unable to survive without someone else looking out for me. I hope not. I don't think so, but I worry. Been looking forward to this opportunity for quiet and self-management.

Since we have been left some money to buy food I have been wondering if I might redirect some of my own money that I'd been saving up to pay for food during this interval to instead buy some gloves, so I have something to keep my hands warm. these ones look nice, albeit expensive. Would be tempted to get a pair in emerald and another in ruby, so I can wear them mismatched with each other, but what I will probably do is ignore the money we've been left, buy my own food, and then see if I have any extra savings.

As well as saying farewell to my mother and her husband, today was also a day for turning in forms to Centrelink so they know I've been a good and diligent job-seeker. The late afternoon was a bad time for doing that, as I had two close calls driving due to glare from the setting sun obscuring other cars or their signals. If I don't have to drive at that hour, I'd much rather avoid it.

They also offered me access to turning in forms online, which would do away with the fortnightly trips. Unfortunately their demonstration tools were down at the time, so I will have to wait until next time. Ah well. Detoured after to the shopping centre in search of fresh cleaning fluid and cloth for my glasses. Somehow managed to make a complete loop of the place before finding my goal right near where I started. At one point accidentally crossed the line of connection between a young child and eir family, which reminded me to be glad I was there alone so I did not have to manage connections with a group.

Fear not, I do not intend to go back to daily chronicling. Been trying to be a bit postier though, because I want to.

Comments

[lost-angelwings.livejournal.com]

It's rly annoying when ppl act like you can't take care of yourself and can't do basic tasks like cleaning and stuff -_-;;; *hugs* I'm sry :( But it's not true, you are very capable and I don't think you need to fear that they're right or that you're not able to take care of yourself, b/c you are, and you have :] At least they'll be gone for a while and you can have the home to yourself :)

*hug hug hug hug hug*